memories of a life I wish we'd lived

sorry I've been absent from this site. its been one of those weeks.

arg. i have a feeling every week until school starts is going to be "one of those weeks". but, complaining is not the reason i started to write, sooo...

one of my favorite books "to own a dragon" by donald miller, talks all about fatherhood. its not a complete work on the subject, but its a good discussion piece.

i'll pick up the topic here- the absence of a father.

one of the connections i was able to make, this past year, is the connection between the absence of a father figure, and the absence of God. One thing Miller talks about is how "our negative perceptions of our dads can sometimes be projected onto God.

while i was reading this book i was also writing a paper on psalm 13. In this psalm the writer talks about the feeling of being "abandoned by God". I'll say this- we live in a world of broken relationships. And because of this we all walk around with this sense of rejection. Because we are rejected by people, we expect rejection from God.

And, it really shouldn't be that way. This kind of thinking doesn't just ruin our self esteems, but it ruins our relationships. When we don't believe we are capable of being loved we can't accept love... and in turn we can't offer our love, or our gifts, to others.

i could say more, but this feels too much like a tangent. add this to the list of things we should talk about. i can tell you some good stories.